I admit it. I am putting off going into my storage, my deep dark pile of the past, and retrieving those journals that strip me bare, and tell me word for word just what transpired, long time past.
Yes, I wrote them for myself. Yes, I am curious. Yes, I wonder how my memories stack up against what I wrote in the moment. I also want really badly to put aside such deep and emotional touchings right now. Why… ? because I have armored myself against the hurt. Yes, Me…. The one always ready for feeling… I have just reached some sort of limit in my life, and have finally become protective of Myself.
And this is not a bad thing. No, indeed. I have just now learned the lesson that I might have well learned long time past, when I was young and full of so much…
So do not despair, those of you who await the next chapter, the next word, the next Phase… they will come…..but…. frankly, it’s All a phase, Dear Reader…. and it will come, but….
Just accept the fact…. It’s All a phase, every single day, every single chapter, every single decade………it will pass, and something new and unknown will come along, something you never even dreamed of, and it will overtake your being, your heart, your spirit, and you will say in retrospect…. Damn! That was the Best!